I would probably say I'm my own biggest road-block to being the person I want to be. In the end, it is I who decide who I am and what I do with my life.
I decide if I should drive myself to the gym or pull the sweet covers up just a tad to cover the morning light.
I'm the one who decides that having a handful of M&Ms after lunch is a perfectly legitimate snack option. Then, I look away when a handful turns into two or three, then the entire bag!
I'm the one who chooses to watch an episode of the Real Housewives of ???, then lets myself get sucked in to watching the entire marathon on a Sunday afternoon when I could be doing something productive and even more enjoyable.
I can be lazy, very lazy.
I tend to start things and never finish them.
I am the queen of time wastage, and I know this about myself.
I'm my own Sugar!!!
I need to hold myself accountable, but I find it so much easier to just look away.
Have you ever tried to give up sugar? Or at least tried to cut back your intake?
That is one addictive little substance, let me tell ya!
I'm a firm believer in "Everything in Moderation", but for some reason Sugar's gotta hold on me. In case you say, "well, what's so wrong with sugar?" Well, here are 146 Reasons Why Sugar is Ruining Your Health!
Fearing sugar and HFCS, I started resorting to Splenda to get my sugar fix. Then I started thinking, "You know, maybe two Splenda's in your coffee every morning isn't such a good idea?" I was adding Splenda to everything that wasn't sweet enough, and something just didn't feel right.
I decided to try to cut back. I cut out Splenda, all diet drinks and tried not to add sugar to anything (including my beloved coffee). It was TOUGH.
By Friday, all I could think of was opening the sugar canister and pouring it down my mouth. I wanted sugar that bad, my body just didn't know what to go without it and that was really all I could think of.
In all honesty, I don't remember the exact outcome of my little experiment. I think I went a week that way, then started reintroducing real sugar to my diet. I started using agave nectar, and that helped reduce some of my cravings, but I still had Splenda & diet drinks from time to time.
Even though my experiment wasn't a complete success, I did notice that after one week, my level of what I though was sweet went down, by a lot. Meaning, what once took 2 or 3 Splenda packets to sweeten, could now be done by 1/2 or 1 packet.
I know I definitely gave up Splenda & diet drinks when I found out I was pregnant. I had read somewhere it might not be good for the baby, so I didn't want to risk it.
I believe I will struggle with finding the right balance of sugar all of my life, but that's one battle that I'm willing to take on! I just have to remember the good ol' saying, "Take it one day at a time!"
UPDATE: 2 Weeks after re-starting this blog, I've focused on cutting back on sugars once again. I've been eating a lot of fruits, and try to get my sweet fix that way. I've noticed my sugar cravings have gone down, and I'm not reaching for the sugar canister either!
Oh, my TV! What can I say about you? I have spent much of my life enjoying the entertainment you provide, as well as wasting precious time that I've been given on this beautiful earth!
I'll say it, I'm a self-proclaimed TV junkie and I have been for most of my life.
The worst part is, that I'm attracted to "Crack TV". It's cheap and entertaining, but it's probably bad for you.
Let me just admit, that up to about a 3 or 4 years ago I could probably discuss (or at least know of) any Real World location that you told me about.
Now I've moved on to the likes of the Real Housewives, The Hills & The City.
I get involved in the drama, and it's so hard not to watch. How do you look away?
The good news is that as I get older, I've gotten a lot busier and my TV usage has gone way down.
Also, sharing a DVR with my husband has helped "shame" me into watching less of the Crack TV. It hasn't completely cured me, though ;)
Ahh, Mah-Johngg. When I was introduced to you a couple of years ago, I'd never known that I'd get so addicted.
I even had to give you for Lent one year, hoping to reduce my cravings, but it all went back to normal afterward. A bad type of normal.
I'd come home, and when it was time to relax I'd turn to you with TV (your accomplice) in the background. I'd tell myself, "I'll only play a couple of games of mah-jongg and then I'll stop". Cut to an hour later with blurred vision, in a non-relaxed state-of-mind, and still, I wouldn't stop myself!
I'm sure there are many other Sugars in my life that I'm failing to report, but these really are some of the top offenders.
In the end, I know I'm the one that needs to be accountable to myself.
For me, I think writing about these Sugars and other tales helps me. It focuses my attention on the things that I need to work on, and really puts things in perspective.
God willing, may the Sugars be scarce and the blogs be plentiful in my life :)