Workout: 30 min walk + 30 min weights
Today was one of those days where I dropped the BB off and left her crying. I HATE those days!
My entire days has been painted by that feeling of failure I get sometimes when it seems I can't do anything right. Ever get that feeling?
I so wish I could stay at home and get to spend more time with her, but that's just not in the cards right now.
I don't want to get too deep here, but it just made me start thinking (among other things) about the price we pay to lead a healthy lifestyle.
I'll be honest, I still feel guilty I'm taking an extra hour to work out while she's in daycare. Right now, my decision to do so has more to do with prepping for labor (which ohMyGosh is coming up so so fast) than to fit into my "goal" jeans (because I have no "goal" jeans right now).
The yoga, swimming and strength-training are helping me get through this third-trimester and I'm so glad. Still, I wonder if I'm focusing too much on the workouts because I'm still eating a wee-bit too much sugar? Or getting to bed too late to be able to wake up at 5 and work out at home?
I've been thinking about this for a while. Every time I reach for a fun-size Snickers bar, or order a mini-Pumpkin Blizzard (you have to order this - oh so good - but maybe don't) I wonder if I'm un-doing all that work that goes into planning and prepping healthy meals not to mention all those workouts.
Do you guys ever have such thoughts? Does it ever impact your future decisions?
ADios :)
1 comments:
I think about this a lot, as well. I think there's this feeling, for me at least, that I need to spend all my time with M as I'm already gone so much because of work. I sometimes feel like I am doing him a disservice by making him go on stroller runs so I can get in a few miles or I'm sacrificing too much bonding time because I had to finish up my long run and left him with the hubs. I often wonder if I would have these feelings if I stayed at home and had more time with him. And then I remind myself that the time we do have is much butter because I'm happier, more focused and more appreciative. If I had a run, I'm more excited to take a break from getting ready to sit down and read with him.
Oh, and the PP Blizzard ... I'm dreaming of one. Next week. Next week ...
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