So... there may or may not have been an incident with RC dealing with pregnancy weight-loss that I may or may not have blown out of proportion. You decide.
A comment was said. I reacted. He apologized and said it came out the wrong way. I was still mad and tried to move on. We had a good Sunday. Sunday night I thought about it some more and I got really mad because, well, you know, how dare he comment about my weight loss. Email explosion ensued on Monday morning. He apologized again. I was still mad then we had another heart-to-heart at night and here we are today.
Looking back, there is so much going on right now. Yes, most of my jeans are fitting me now but I'm still about 8lbs away from my pre-preg weight. On the diet front, it's been mostly good but there's always room for improvement. In terms of workouts I have not been making it a priority. I have a 4 month old who has no idea what a schedule is so I can't plan around that. I have an almost 3-year old that sometimes wakes up early and hangs off my leg as I try to finish my squat set, asking "up...up...up...".
Today, the clouds aligned and BBC slept later than usual (oh mighty swaddle - thank-you!) but BB was up and at 'em. I snuckaway as RC got her ready for the learning center and was able to squeeze a mile run in. She later wrangled herself to the bedroom and proceeded to watch me run while she made funny hand-running motions and smile at me. I loved it. I finished with some yoga and feel great today.
In order to avoid the guilt of not spending enough time with the kiddos, I thought working out at home was the best route, but we're just not there yet.
Kim, thanks for this blog post today: Avoiding the Mommy Trap
I think part of the blow-out with RC stems from the fact that I myself am not happy with where I'm at and I miss working out but I feel too guilty to make anything happen.
I have to recognize that I obviously can't plan to be at the gym each and every morning at 7 am, but I can take steps to make that happen because my sanity needs it. So starting tomorrow I have a new schedule. I'll be going in to work 30 minutes later and am planning on taking BC/BBC a little earlier to their respective daycare centers so that I can use that long-lost forgotten gym membership.
Hello pool, I missed you!
I can't wait for that me-time, and I think RC/BB/BBC will be all the better for it!!! I hope ;)
Take a fistpump - mommy guilt!